After the initial shock of being told of my lay off a couple of weeks ago, I had hope to have a stronger more productive week in the office. But the emotional tidal surges are just too strong and unpredictable. It’s been really hard to keep working there knowing that all I have left to do is essentially dig my own grave. I love the people I work with, but it’s hard to even look people in the face now.
At first, of course, I only noticed my own difficulties. But after the news got out, it seems that I’m not the only one feeling bad. I’m happy that so many people care about me, but I’m saddened that my situation is making people uncomfortable. Oh well, that’s just life. We’re all so interconnected and you never escape from it.
I’m still very excited to be setting up my own shop again, but these chaotic blues are going to be with me until at least the last day.